Sister goes back to school... no more daily companion... sighi'll miss you sister. Godspeed!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
there's nothing like a good cry.
"The phrase 'I've been there' is in the chorus of Christ's theme song.
To the Lonely, Jesus whispers, 'I've been there.'
To the Discouraged, Christ nods his head and sighs, 'I've been there.'"
He's been there. And thank God someone understands...
It's been a tumultuous two weeks of work-work-work. For those of you that didn't read Ate's public service announcement, as of January 7th, 2008, I became a bonafide teacher @ St. Mary School as a Math, Life Science, and P.E. teacher. Hurrah! ehhh...
In the past ten days, I have cried 6-7 times. It's scary when you realize that what you've always dreamed about turns out to be something completely different. I always thought I was meant to be a teacher - to have a higher purpose - to help and motivate students to reach their dreams. Ultimately, that's what a teacher does - helps a child realize what his/her dream is, accompanying them, setting the basic foundation of what's to be explored in life. I always admired my teachers and loved to write on the chalk board or read from the huge teacher's manual (complete with spiral binding). But as each year of life has gone on, I've realized that it's more than holding chalk or carrying a big textbook. It's a huge responsibility. You have the ability and the power to touch someone's life. You can empower or discourage a child with just one word, one glance. What a blessing to do that - to call that your profession.
I think I still want to do that. But this has been the hardest two weeks of my life. All I know is my work. I've been immersed in my work - and not in this healthy way. I'm trying to catch up and learn things and look like I have my shit together. But I don't. And I know I'm still learning, it's only been two weeks, but I want to be the best I can be for those kiddos.
In due time...
Teaching middle school can be a bitch. gaaaah. But that's a population that really needs a strong support system. I'm starting to trail off and I'm not quite sure where I'm getting at....
All in all, it's been rough, I can add details later for interested, inquiring minds to know, and I just need to pray.
I've forgotten how to pray. And I cry because of that too.
I haven't had You along for the journey. I'm sorry.
Help me remember, Lord. You've been there...
To the Lonely, Jesus whispers, 'I've been there.'
To the Discouraged, Christ nods his head and sighs, 'I've been there.'"
He's been there. And thank God someone understands...
It's been a tumultuous two weeks of work-work-work. For those of you that didn't read Ate's public service announcement, as of January 7th, 2008, I became a bonafide teacher @ St. Mary School as a Math, Life Science, and P.E. teacher. Hurrah! ehhh...
In the past ten days, I have cried 6-7 times. It's scary when you realize that what you've always dreamed about turns out to be something completely different. I always thought I was meant to be a teacher - to have a higher purpose - to help and motivate students to reach their dreams. Ultimately, that's what a teacher does - helps a child realize what his/her dream is, accompanying them, setting the basic foundation of what's to be explored in life. I always admired my teachers and loved to write on the chalk board or read from the huge teacher's manual (complete with spiral binding). But as each year of life has gone on, I've realized that it's more than holding chalk or carrying a big textbook. It's a huge responsibility. You have the ability and the power to touch someone's life. You can empower or discourage a child with just one word, one glance. What a blessing to do that - to call that your profession.
I think I still want to do that. But this has been the hardest two weeks of my life. All I know is my work. I've been immersed in my work - and not in this healthy way. I'm trying to catch up and learn things and look like I have my shit together. But I don't. And I know I'm still learning, it's only been two weeks, but I want to be the best I can be for those kiddos.
In due time...
Teaching middle school can be a bitch. gaaaah. But that's a population that really needs a strong support system. I'm starting to trail off and I'm not quite sure where I'm getting at....
All in all, it's been rough, I can add details later for interested, inquiring minds to know, and I just need to pray.
I've forgotten how to pray. And I cry because of that too.
I haven't had You along for the journey. I'm sorry.
Help me remember, Lord. You've been there...
Monday, January 14, 2008
continuation of i...
am delirious now.
am dumbfounded by grading while simultaneously amazed that computers can do it all for you.
am amused by her lovers :) hot-damn, i'm lucky!
just corrected approximately 200 Science pages of key terms, outlines, workbooks, and section reviews.
scheduled a chapter 16 test science test for wednesday. yikes! first test as a bonafide teacher!
assigned "kickball" for my 3-8th graders' p.e. classes. oh yeaaa kickball!
...and therefore almost got hit in the face when the kiddos fouled their kicks.
need to figure out a more effective planning system.
just made a new friend named INDIGO!!! :D
am in dire need of some rest and relaxation. but that won't happen til this weekend... or spring break.
would like to go home to Seattle and eat some cupcakes from Cupcake Royale, get crumpets at Queen Mary, walk through Pike Place, grab a burger from Dick's, have hot apple cider with real whipped cream from B&O, play with my babies, consume a heff or two & midori sours, have face-time with Bella, get cheap fried rice and honey walnut prawns with the gang in I-District, have a date @ Tamarind Tree, and grub on some hot wings from hooters.
wow, so really what i want is to go back to Seattle to eat? yuuuuum. :D
.....need to sleep.
am dumbfounded by grading while simultaneously amazed that computers can do it all for you.
am amused by her lovers :) hot-damn, i'm lucky!
just corrected approximately 200 Science pages of key terms, outlines, workbooks, and section reviews.
scheduled a chapter 16 test science test for wednesday. yikes! first test as a bonafide teacher!
assigned "kickball" for my 3-8th graders' p.e. classes. oh yeaaa kickball!
...and therefore almost got hit in the face when the kiddos fouled their kicks.
need to figure out a more effective planning system.
just made a new friend named INDIGO!!! :D
am in dire need of some rest and relaxation. but that won't happen til this weekend... or spring break.
would like to go home to Seattle and eat some cupcakes from Cupcake Royale, get crumpets at Queen Mary, walk through Pike Place, grab a burger from Dick's, have hot apple cider with real whipped cream from B&O, play with my babies, consume a heff or two & midori sours, have face-time with Bella, get cheap fried rice and honey walnut prawns with the gang in I-District, have a date @ Tamarind Tree, and grub on some hot wings from hooters.
wow, so really what i want is to go back to Seattle to eat? yuuuuum. :D
.....need to sleep.
Friday, January 11, 2008
i...
have wanted to blog but haven't been able to because my internet is down on my toshiba. :( now i'm on ate's...
am officially employed!!!!! :D
and am therefore officially tired...
am a bridesmaid for CARLA LOUISE! oh haey Boo!
have no idea what I'm doing at work, but figuring it out. day by day...
am in love. ;)
am obsessed with WICKED!
must buy tickets...
am listening to ingrid michaelson's "girl and boys." (thanks kirs!)
will be car-shopping! hurrah!
want to get a Seattle U license plate holder. Go Redhawks!
should call my friends more. i miss you guys.
need to write a better blog.
am too tired...
am gonna go read "Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West."
woot.
am officially employed!!!!! :D
and am therefore officially tired...
am a bridesmaid for CARLA LOUISE! oh haey Boo!
have no idea what I'm doing at work, but figuring it out. day by day...
am in love. ;)
am obsessed with WICKED!
must buy tickets...
am listening to ingrid michaelson's "girl and boys." (thanks kirs!)
will be car-shopping! hurrah!
want to get a Seattle U license plate holder. Go Redhawks!
should call my friends more. i miss you guys.
need to write a better blog.
am too tired...
am gonna go read "Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West."
woot.
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