Do I go on or do I turn back? Go on...
I'm well into my fourth month of being a JV and I am still lost, confused, saddened. I wake up some days feeling like this is the right path, this is where God led me and this is where I am meant to be. And then there are other days, I feel this pain in my chest like my breath has been taken from me and all I want to do is yell but all I can do is swallow that air.
It's a dichotomy of emotions. It really is. And yet I know this is where God wanted me. I'm just being challenged in a way I predicted... but I didn't realize how painful and exhausting it would be.
I miss the things that make me passionate about life --- my family, my friends, retreats, mission trips, club activities and performances... But I just have to have faith.
The way I see it, faith is more of the ability to persevere than perfect it. And that is one of the hardest things to do. God doesn't ask us to be perfect...maybe He doesn't want us to be. But He hopes that we persevere and grow in our faith. And sometimes, the perseverance is the more exhausting and challenging part of this journey called life.
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Amen sister friend! Onward indeed, Christian solder. But if ever u get tired of "hanging on". Remember I'm here to catch ya. All u need to do is ask.
Life is in the day to day, the details, the struggles and joys. Sounds like you are living, my dear. And that you are doing such in the heart, will, and palm of the Almighty - the best place for you.
I pray He holds you close and grants you all peace as you continue to live your faith.
You're an amazing woman and it's a joy and honor to be your friend, however many miles are in the path. :)
Loves,
Kari
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