Freak Out!

I felt really tense today at the end of school. I drove out alone - my roommate is visiting her special friend :) for a wedding and is gone for the weekend. But I felt really stressed - kinda outta it, and I was rushing to get out of there. And I found myself saying, "Slow down. Slow down. Breathe for Pete's sake."

When I got into the car, I immediately turned on the radio - like I always do... And then I felt even more stressed out. Overwhelmed. Stuck and trapped.

So I turned it off. And started a conversation with God. So for about 20-30 minutes I was driving in a silent car - running 70 mph rather than my usual 90 mph and started talking to God --- outloud.

And it was an incredible feeling. To talk. And to hear my voice speaking to Him. Because I knew I was being heard - even if I wasn't getting a response. I started talking about my stresses here, the stresses in my head, praying about tense issues, and praying for other people. And I felt my scrunched face slowly relaxing itself. And the tense muscles were slowly relaxing. And I began to feel at peace.

If only I took time to do that every day. Slow down, pray, and talk to God. Now, I have to take some time to listen. Be still, quiet, listen, and be at peace. Simply be.

And in today's horoscope (for you Aries peeps...):

"If something goes wrong, it may remind you of other times in your past that have caused you pain. Old hurts come back to haunt you and if you choose to sweep them back under the psychological rug, you still won't make them go away. You can resolve the past by feeling the pain of the present. It's important, however, to discern which is which."